I dunno if anyone actually reads these, but I felt like posting here since it's kinda been a while. I still browse this site pretty frequently. I just tend to lurk around a lot. A while back, I said that I wanted to get into making art and be more active in the community. The truth is, I haven't really made any progress with either of those things. I recently bought a Galaxy S8 Ultra specifically for digital art but I feel like I simply don't have enough time, energy, or motivation to teach myself how to draw. I seriously don't know how all of you artists out there manage to do it. I spend most of my days at work so the little free time that I get is spent trying to recover before I have to go to work again. I really wish I could teach myself new skills but I don't know how to do that when most of my life is just a constant worry about money. America is a corporate hellhole and it's really mentally and emotionally draining trying to survive here. I know some of you make careers out of your art, but it would take many, many years for me to be able to reach that point.

I designed this OC a while back, which is one of the few things in life that I'm proud of. Maybe you've seen her around because I tend to post her a lot tbh. I know that a lot of people probably don't really care about some rando's OC, but she's very special and important to me. She's been a part of my life for a long time now and I basically use her as an outlet for representing myself. I wish so bad that I could draw her myself but as you can see, I've had to rely on commissioning other people. Don't get me wrong, I don't mind paying for commissions at all. I think it's a great way to support my favorite artists. I just get sad that I don't always have the opportunity to share my ideas and share my mind with the rest of the world. I end up mostly keeping to myself because I don't really know if anyone else is interested in what I have to say. I always thought that I could use art as a way of expressing myself better but now I've hit this roadblock and it feels like I'm stuck living in my own mind, isolated from everyone else.

Eh I think I'm gonna try to write a bio for my OC so she at least has more of a personality.