When you’re nearly 40 and unmarried, and you realize you’re going to be okay

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本文讲述了一位四十岁未婚女性在面对他人关于生育的提问时的内心感受，以及她如何在追求个人独立与自我实现的过程中找到内心的平静与满足。通过与女儿的互动，她反思了自己对婚姻与子女的看法，并分享了这段旅程中的思考与成长。

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A few weeks ago my best friend’s nine-year-old daughter and I were playing.

Our play consists of her sometimes weaving pink ribbons through my hair or me helping her assemble an imaginary set for a show she’s intent on producing (she’s creative, this one).

That day, after I affixed one of the many glittery crowns she owned on her head, she asked, Are you ever going to have children, Felicia?

I admired her moxie, the way in which she’s able to navigate terrain that one could consider a minefield.

Adults exercise politeness and discretion in a way that can sometimes be numbing, and it was such an odd relief to hear a child ask something so plainly–just because I’m the only woman she knows who doesn’t have a child of her own.

My best friend and I exchanged a look, and I replied, No, C. I don’t plan on having children. She appeared pensive, and after a few moments she nodded her head, said, okay, and we continued on with our play.

weave vt. 编织；编排；使迂回前进

ribbon n. 带；缎带；（勋章等的）绶带；带状物；勋表

imaginary adj. 虚构的，假想的；想像的；虚数的

intent on 专心致志于

affix vt. 粘上；署名；将罪责加之于

glittery adj. 闪烁的，闪光的

crown n. 王冠；花冠；王权；顶点

moxie n. 精力；勇气

terrain n. [地理] 地形，地势；领域；地带

minefield n. 布雷区；充满隐伏危险的事物

discretion n. 自由裁量权；谨慎；判断力；判定；考虑周到

numbing adj. 使麻木的；使失去感觉的

odd adj. 奇数的；古怪的；剩余的；临时的；零散的

relief n. 救济；减轻，解除；安慰；浮雕

plainly adv. 明白地；坦率地；平坦地；朴素地

pensive adj. 沉思的，忧郁的；悲伤的，哀愁的

I did love, once. Yet it was love that was easily altered, one that had slowly come apart at the seams.

But for a time we lived a terrific photograph, and spoke of glinting diamonds, me swanning about in a white dress and children winding around my calves.

This life, while part of a defined plan I had for myself, felt distant, foreign–an uninhabited country for which I needed a visa and complicated paperwork for entry.

I never took to the idea of being owned by someone else; I never considered changing my name.

I never imagined myself in a white dress (I prefer blue), and I’ve never truly felt the maternal ache and tug as many of my dear friends who are mothers, describe.

Back then I viewed marriage as less of a partnership and more of a prison, but I imagine that had much to do with the man in my life.

Back then I slept on top sheets rather than between them, and I was forever poised for flight.

Back then I didn’t want children because I was certain I wouldn’t be any good at it considering my history.

altered 改变了的；蚀变的

come apart at the seams 分裂；崩溃，失败；衰落

terrific 极好的；极其的，非常的；可怕的

glint 使闪光；使发光

calves小牛；小腿；腓；呆子

uninhabited 无人居住的，杳无人迹的

maternal 母亲的；母性的；母系的；母体遗传的

ache 疼痛

tug 拖船；拖曳；苦干

top sheet上层床单

poised 泰然自若的，镇定的；平衡的，均衡的；摆好姿势不动的，静止的

After a couple of years of playing house, this great love and I experienced a drift and while he went on to marry and have a family of his own, I never once thought I’d missed out on my chance, rather, I was relieved.

I treasure my solitude, my freedom. I didn’t want to be harvested. Back then I had so much work ahead of me, work on my self, my character, that I knew I wouldn’t be much good to anyone else.

I knew I had to make myself whole and complete before I gave even a sliver of myself to someone else.

treasure 珍爱；珍藏

solitude 孤独；隐居；荒僻的地方

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