Kemani Jenkins
Professor Iemma
English
The day I lost her changed my view on life forever. Usually after 11 years my memory
of the time she was alive would be gone but I remember everything that happened with
her the only thing is I can’t remember her face or her voice which is what I yearn to
remember. Every time I go to sleep I think god’s going to put her voice or her face in a
dream so I could experience it one more time but he doesn’t. Honestly god did a lot of
stuff that I wasn’t happy about when it came to her.
My grandmother was the most god-fearing lady I knew and she made sure she went
to church and read her bible and had her grandchildren reading the Bible and going to
church. I always wondered after all of this why would He give her breast cancer like
literally so mind boggling. She went through so much pain before going to heaven and
even after she moved in with my mom it just got progressively worse. I always
remembered praying for her and thinking the next day she would be better but that
never happened. I started seeing her smile fade and her whole aura just change . This
really caused me to do anything to try to make her smile. I love my grandmother so
much that this loss caused me to always wonder why to everything in life. But what I
can say is this tragic event in my life definitely made me try to understand people way
more before I said anything because honestly you never know what people are going
through. I cherish the people around me especially my mom as she was just a girl who
lost her mom.
But now as I read I always wonder why to things or try my best understand everything
that’s going on just how I do in regular day life. I read the back of the book just so I
could prepare myself and skip the sad episodes in shows so I don’t be sad because
once I’m sad the sad parts of Her life always pops up. So I try my best always smile
throughout life but that question of why always pop up